Wish upon a star

cheeezieball:

     I haaate nothing to do all day. I want to be BUSY, strange to say. The rest of my classes don’t start in two weeks. Shoot me

tell me about it, chica. so bored!

Got back from the gym and now, my left hand is shaking a lot and I feel quite a load on my shoulders…I thought working out would get rid of my frustrations, but look at me :\

I don’t know why, but these days I feel suffocated. I can’t breathe and I want to get away from everything. When did I become this weak? I don’t know if people see this in me and deliberately turn away or if they really do not see this in me. I feel so trapped and lost, but no one is looking for me. Why is it with so many people around me, I feel so alone? I can only hope that when college starts next week I can find someone who will really change my life for the better because I’m scared of what’s going to happen to me at this rate. What if I become so burdened by this feeling that I bring everyone down? I can’t tell other people because it would be wrong of someone like myself to burden others with my own emotions. I feel should I ever become a burden to someone, my life’s meaning will end. Perhaps this is something that stems from an earlier portion of my childhood, but I do not know for certain. I can only hope that this will end soon.